Congratulations!!

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Hey You!

I would personally like to congratulate you on embarking this chapter of your life. As I was scrolling through Facebook, I had seen many of you starting different level of educational journey, like beginning college, grad school or children starting another year in school. Whether or not it’s a semester or simply a class, you are bettering yourself. With education being so important because of personal growth or advancing in job title, I wish you the best in what you are studying. We all have different goals and time frames of when we want to accomplish them, so why not congratulation you for sacrificing your sleep, your time watching television, or just doing something other than studying because it’s going to be worth it- this I promise you. And many people may not agree with you going back to school because it’s more debt you are adding, but you have to make some sacrifices in order to be a different person right? If there’s not a lot people supporting you, just know you have someone behind you, cheering you on, giving you that extra little push. There will be though times and rough nights, but it will all be worth it. Someone is looking up to you; you’re inspiring them now, later, or in the future. So please keep going when you start to question why you began in the first place.

For those in school, I hope you have an awesome semester or year.

For those starting a new craft, I hope you continue to have the same spark when the flames start to fade.

For those entering in a new management, don’t forget about those who are in the position you were once in. Do your job, but remain humble.

And for those still trying to figure things out, congratulations for not giving up when you have every right to. Keep going, you got it! You’re going to get there.

 

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Delivery: The Price Tag

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Is there a price for what you decide to do?

One time in our lives, we are told to go to school and get a degree. But we don’t think about the aftermath, the consequences, or the benefits of this?  One way of thinking about these three things are this:

The aftermath

You are more knowledgeable than when you first began college a few years ago. You take many classes, some are for your required major and some are just for fun. You become more wiser because you study or new skills that probably won’t help you now but later down the road. You eventually become an asset to the company you work for and more.  You have something with your name attached to it and you’re more marketable in a sense than a person who knows something but don’t have the credentials to back them up. You have an experience that some don’t have, going to parties on Thursday’s night just to get enough sleep to make to that eight o’clock you don’t know why you register for. You meet a lot of different people, who some become your friends for a lifetime. You learn about yourself through the hard times and struggle. You learn about the sacrifices of doing something now versus later.

The Consequences

You have done the easy part, seating through many lectures, reading boring books, taking endless notes. You went on to complete another degree. Congratulations! You began looking for jobs, but now there are consequences. You have to tools to be successful, but you don’t have the experience needed to jump on board. You’re overqualified for entry level positions and you’re worth way more than the pay being offered. What do you do? I say take the job because you never know what could happened and when. Also, there’s debt- the ones you have to pay back. Some people aren’t fortunate enough to have a job either right after college or within six months of graduating, then Sallie Mae sends you your first bill without any hesitation. What do you do? Take a job paying minimum wage? See if you can go back to doing something while you were in college so you are able to pay this bill and the many others that comes with being an adult? Will we ever get out of those?

The benefits

Getting a degree can help lead to another road or avenue you have never thought of. It can open many doors with time. I had a brief conversation with one of my managers at work. I asked how did he get into a manager position. I thought everyone had to have a degree in something unless they worked their way up to that point. Long story short, he graduated with a psychology degree, but during his time in college, he was a waiter. He enjoyed getting tips while doing this. After college, he became a salesperson, enjoyed doing that for way. Later, he began his master degree as a counselor. I don’t think he finished, but he did say he had a lot of experience counseling and talking with people. And now, his job description states for him to talk to a lot of people. So although he is in the food industry, having a degree helped. Not saying he wouldn’t be where he’s at without a degree because it is still possible.

I’m not saying don’t get a degree because I have one.  I’m just saying there’s a price tag for every “delivery” or package you encounter in life. Make decisions, make mistakes, and have fun, but don’t make the same mistake twice because of the decisions you once decided to make.

 

 

I Am a Product.

Here is a simple poem, I hope you enjoy!

I am a product of dedication and hard work.

A product of late nights, early mornings, restless nights.

I am a product of the unknown when the stairs seemed too much to climb.

A product of failures, not knowing which way to go.

I am a product of efforts and success.

I am a product of I’m doing fine, everything is okay.

A product of smooth, rich, brown skin.

I am a product of knowing Spanish but not speaking it.

A product of Cerebral palsy, of being considered disabled.

I am a product of asking random questions, but I’m not nosy.

A product of being laid back, real easy going.

I am a product of Hey, do you need help?

A product of breaking the norm,

I am a product of African music and Palm oil.

A product of rice and potatoes greens.

I am a product of try agains and can’t give ups.

A product of listening and being quiet.

I am a product of laughter and helping hands.

A product of music and dance.

I am a product of being short and looking young.

A product of books and papers.

I am a product of education and degrees.

A product of hope and fears.

I am a product of me and this is who I am.

 

 

 

 

Do all the things that scares you!

Hey you!

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If I wasn’t who I was, I wouldn’t be who I am.

Life takes us out of wack, just to bring us back in focus… At the beginning of the year, I wrote down everything I wanted to accomplish in 2017 on a note card. I’m not a structured person (I’m hoping the write a post about the title of my blog, which I have a meaning behind it), where I have a calendar, to do- list, or have a ritual that have to be accomplish before I begin my day. But I wanted to see what will happen if I just did something differently. As I look at this note card, I checked off four of the six things I wrote down.

Here is a snapshot of what I wrote:

  • Become a notary
  • Become a CNA II (certified nursing assistant)
  • Become a phlebotomist
  • Apply to Nursing school
  • Save as much as you can
  • Pay yourself first.

The last two things I wrote because I had seen an interview of Lisa Nichols, a very remarkable lady, towards the end of 2016 of how she was able to save. During the interview she mentioned the importance of paying yourself first. I never understand this concept because I worked for what I had and I considered myself to manage money well. But the importance of paying yourself first decreases the means of living paycheck to paycheck. She suggested each time you get pay, pay yourself between 10% and 20% of your salary. This doesn’t mean to save this percentage after you have spent whatever you have spent because you might have this percentage to save. But I can say this has been working for me because I am allowed me to save as much as I can.

Becoming a notary was never in my vision but I wanted to be one just in case family and friends needed one. I hasn’t made me less of a person, so I said why not and it will help me professionally. I wanted to become a CNA II and phlebotomist to help me with nursing school.

All of these things scared me because I didn’t know if I was going to be accomplish this. Without knowing, I am able to accomplish this one step of the way. I wasn’t always consistent. I registered for CNA II class in March and just now taking it in July.

Everything that scares you is meant to be accomplished. You can be stagnant, but just don’t get too comfortable. You will never know something if you don’t try.

 

 

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A letter to my younger self

Hey Julia,

If you are reading this, I want you to know that life is not going to go as expected, but you will certainly adapt accordingly. You will work hard early on and continue to work hard until you are in the right place at the right time. You might be hesitant about some things in your life, but you will eventually become a person who will jump at opportunities on impose because you will know the more you think about something, the more you won’t do it.  However, there will be friendships where you will want to hold on as long as possible but those will eventually fade. You will learn to be strong in your most vulnerable state, always caring for others. Throughout the years, many people will come into your life, whether for a season or a reason and you will love them just for that. You will learn to appreciate life for what it is and not sweat the small stuff (this might take a long time to grasp). You will learn to eventually become carefree and free spirited. One day you will go off to school in a small town. You will fail, cry, but pick yourself back up again. It might take you a little longer to graduate, but you won’t let that stop you. During these years, you will meet some awesome people, travel many places, and fall in love with giving back. You will take risks (not too many). There will be a period in time where you will learn to love yourself, for all the flaws that you hated when you were growing up. People will love and value you for just the way you are. When you graduate from college, you will not obtained the degree you really want, but you will graduate with two. You will work the jobs you will be working. taking necessary classes in order to help you grow. You will be a dependable person in several people’s lives. You will have a way with money. You will have a gift of speaking positivity into others. You will encounter several different guys, which some will become good friends in the end. You will learn that keeping up with people is very important to you and try to stay connected with many. You will be a lover of music and signing. It will seem like work will consume your life for a little bit, but you will find a balance, don’t worry. There will be a significant loss in your life; you will take this hard but you will find a way to continue on. Later on in life, you will learn to take risks and trust the process. You will be a blessing in someone’s life. You will simply love you.

From,

24 years old Julie.

“It’s okay to not be okay.”

Hey you!

I wrote this during the time I was seeing a counselor while in school… over a year ago. I decided to finish it because this could help someone… 

Before I started to speak to someone, I thought my life had to be okay. I thought I had to simply absorb all my feelings and act like I was fine. I was always happy no matter what happened to me, or I just didn’t let things phase me. After my mom passed, my life had changed. I have to say, I thought failing out of nursing school was bad, but now I know that losing a person so close to you is the worst feeling ever. So one day while seeing my counselor before attending class, she said “Julia, it’s okay to not be okay.” Honestly, at the time I didn’t understand that because I thought I had to be okay. Everyone was depending on me to finish school and make my mom proud… which was a struggle but I did it. Everyone knew me to be happy, always smiling, always being positive… so I thought I had to be that happy Julia everyone knew. During this process, I learned it was important to confront my feelings and problems because it will eventually catch up with me, where I won’t have much control over them, which eventually happened.

Because this was written over a year ago, I would like to reflect on how I am now. Life isn’t easy, but it has become bearable in a way. I am able to channel my emotions in different areas of my life, such as working. I used to worry about other people being happy, which I often neglected myself. I still put people first, but my feelings are put into the equation too. I guess because mom worked all the time, that trait or characteristic of her has definitely been passed down. Although I’m always working, I’m thankful I’m able to find balance. I don’t suppress my feelings anymore, I guess everything is shown in my face, so if I’m tired or have an attitude, it is definitely known. I am living for myself slowing and surely although this is still a process. I’m trying new things and just living life a little on the edge now that I was some time. Because education is important to me, I still try to take a class I’m interested in here and there. Everything isn’t peaches and cream, but I’m smoothing them out.

If you or anyone is struggling with wanting to be okay while not being okay, whether through a loss or just being in difficult stage in life, it’s okay to not be okay because you’re not alone. Although you might feel alone, just know there are many people going through the same things just differently. And don’t be afraid to reach out and ask for help because you will never know how someone or something will help you unless you actually reach out. We go through trails and tribulations, only for those things to make us ultimately stronger. Deal with whatever you are going through because it is bound to come up when you don’t it to.

Someone will always care about you even through your darkness moments. Sometimes, we have to evaluate life in order to know there is still a shining light at the end of the tunnel. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh Mother

My heart is empty

My heart is hurting

My smile isn’t full,

it isn’t as bright.

The memories of your life still remains,

Dancing in the winds.

The works and pain of your labor hasn’t gone in vain.

Your smile tells a story of the many tears  you’ve shed and sacrifices you’ve made.

We are young adults, but your presence is still needed, day in and day out

I’m now a motherless daughter, depending on my earthly and Heavenly Father

Some things we take for granted, but I cherish your time, laughter, and aspiration

The healing has started but at a slow pace, some days are better than others.

My heart, you left without saying your final words.

You’re still beating but without a sound.

My nights are lonely and sometimes quiet,

but you’re resting in His arms and your new found home.

I hope you kiss your siblings, embracing them with warm hugs. Don’t forget to tell grandma and grandpa I said hi.

If I could kiss you one more time, I certainly will. A hug, a smile. But until we meet again, I will remember your never forgettable smile.