Today is your day  and I wanted to give this you. Happy birthday to the most loving person I know. May you continue to fly high and rest easy.

Today, God allowed you to enter this world.
Through the many years, you have graced the world with your presence.
The many people you have encountered, the many people you called your own
Your bright smile brought warmth and comfort to many
You shine bright through the broken pieces that turned the pain into good.
It’s surreal that we celebrate your presence while you constantly surrounds us.
We can’t see you, but you are here
The many night of waiting up. Oh, how I miss those.
The many phone call, mostly saying how proud you are of us.
You always did everything wholeheartedly, with a smile so bright as day.
Even through the mist of your difficult times, you gave Him praise.
So many talk about your good and strength.

Your hopefulness kept my spirit alive
I didn’t know that saying goodbye would be so soon, that the pain still carries on
I smile because I see your smiling face
This is not goodbye but see you later.
May you fly high not only this day but everyday.
I hope to find comfort in your memories, in your words, and in your strength.
A hug and kiss I send to you

And they fell

Hey you!

Towards the wee hours of the morning, the tears fell. I don’t know why or how. Sometimes I sing in order to express my feelings, but I guess I needed to release some sadness and pain. It’s difficult wanting to do right but everything wrong at the same time. I just want to live a little more.

I feel like when I need you the most you are drifting away. I know life gets the best of us, but I’m still here. When I try to be understanding you tighten your hold, which is easy for you because I know I’m forgiving. It’s not fair that you have faded, but I’m still here. Going through the emotions are easy until you finally start to endure the mental and physical pain. It’s hard, but every day I take another step forward. I look back at me then, how I was greatly depressed and sad.

Things can slowly progress if you allow positive thoughts to encounter your mind. Sadness and pain is never easy, but just take a little inch forward, and it will make a major difference.